may 3
i wish i could love in a
laugh cry fight for something on
the grass kind of way (and
also be loved but my haiku is too long already)
people who write haikus like
3-5-3 are
very impressive.
trying to write about things i did today without channeling "ella
has been meandering the crust of this earth for fourteen
years" and while breaking my habit of overexplaining and while not writing for an audience.
that is altogether too many things.
i like orders. instructions. i like stealing from my friends.
watch your friend get very sad and very happy and very sad all in the span of twenty minutes.
watch your friend pay a stranger to make him bleed.
watch your friend get very happy again.
watch your friend get very tired.
watch your friend get very happy again.
smoke a cigarette and feel like an asshole.
put it out 3/4 of the way through. save it for
later.
watch people you care about but aren't close with get very emotional.
watch someone you look up to do something badass.
watch someone you have complicated feelings about get very emotional.
try to feel happy for her.
watch someone you think you care about cry for her. feel very ashamed.
try to sing in a language you don't speak.
try to shout in a language you don't speak.
try to talk to people you care about but aren't close with.
try to feel like you're a part of something.
stop trying.
smoke the last 1/4 of your cigarette.